Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in Annemieke's LiveJournal:

Friday, July 25th, 2003
1:44 am	WOHOOOO I think I just fixed and saved a picture to the journal - YEAHHHHH for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :) Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Josh Groban - To where we are (Comment on this)
1:29 am	Ok So, I think I need to learn how to sit down each day and vent. Because when I finally get here there is like WAY to much information. It has been a most challenging week. First started off by arriving back to work early from vacation to fire someone. Then the week went downhill from there. I think sometimes one just needs to prioritize feelings and emotions before being emotional. That would be me. I had company in June, that decided to use my phone for the 1-900 #. Telus did not take to well to that....however, it's been resolved in some wondrous way. Second item would be the fact my car, "molly" is sick. There is something bizarre going on with her front that is making a very unusual noise. Mr. Drayton Valley will be in tomorrow night to save me. Thank God. I can't deal well with porn and a sick car. Work is hell. But I think throughout the hell, I'm beginning to see that I'm a "none"fit for the environment. I just wish they'd decide that so I can leave, and I could accept my buy out and carry on. My old boss told me last night, that he tried for 3 months for them to be that he was a non fit, but it didn't work, and he told me that I'd just probably end up quitting. It comes to a point in ones life that you need to decide what is for the best long term, vs. what is best today. And today and longterm, the hellish work enviornment isn't for me. I think that I'm very homesick. Just got incredible pictures in the mail of my sister's kids. In one hand I'm homesick, and the other hand, it drives me insane that she has kids, doesn't appreciate the fact that she has them. Something that I'd give my right arm for. I need to be thankful that I have them in my life, and move on from there. Ok, enough venting. I need to make my bed and crawl into. I pray tomorrow will be a stellar day. (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 15th, 2003
10:16 pm	Things Well, what a week. I've been off work for the last 2 weeks, on what they call a vacation. I'm not sure how a vacation works, but all I know, it just goes by way to fast. :) I had friends, that I used to babysitt from New Brunswick here, who were living in BC, but on route back to New Brunswick. Their timing, which seemed to me, couldn't have came at a worse time, but reflecting back, I think it was brought me out of the blah's that I had been in. Last week, the Dr told me, that I needed more surgery, hysterectomy to be excat, and how I'd need to be off work for approx. 2 months. Angelmermaid, who is truly an angel, came down, along with Amy, painted my toes, brought me chocolate, pepsi, and just hung out. Sometimes, I think that I can't believe, I'm so lucky to have such good friends like them. They are my backbone right now for sure. On Tuesday past, I headed to Edmonton to pick up a friend from New Brunswick, who has now moved back to Alberta. I stayed with my Aunt Diane, Uncle Tim, and cousin Carolyn - it is always a challenge to visit there, Diane is controlling but nice, Tim is critical but good to me? And Carolyn, well she's 12, and spoiled rotten. Having said that, it was a great visit. I helped my Auntie Diane clean, went shopping, and spent just time talking about things dear to my heart. On Wednesday, I finally met Brent. He's this guy, I've been emailing on a continual basis since March. And I have to say, he was everything I could have imagined and more. We went to the Olive Garden, then to BP's for coffee, and home again. The connection between us, was amazing. I am not even sure that I'm able to put it into words what it was like. But, I decided to make the trip to his hometown, to visit for the weekend. I had to break a date with Angelmermaid for IKEA shopping, which was hard, but in the same breath, was one of the best decisions of my life. It was a wonderful and peaceful experience. Back to work today, thinking that I can't believe I work there. But, have realized in the course of the last few weeks, that it's time for a change. Work just can't consume you, or it will get you in the end. It's time, just to give myself permission to live. Sounds like an easy concept, but a hard battle for sure. Something, that I am now working on, day by day by day. Sorry Angelmermaid about Ikea, but I think we should go soon. :) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 26th, 2003
11:15 pm	Oh what a day SO, We can't fire the agent that has missed more time than actual work. Apparently, she has just cause for not being at work. Something that I'm dealing with internally. My Dr', has placed me off work for a week, figures I need the mental break, and some sleep. I hope that I'm able to do so, because my assistant keeps DRIVING me nuts. Today in total, she has called here 11 times. I emailed her and told her to just back off. In a nice way. Lots of things on the mind, not entirely sure how to filter them through, but I think that when it comes to this writing online, it's going to be a big source for helping me. So, thank you Angelmermaid, for linking me up. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 24th, 2003
11:22 pm	Tried Well, I think I've screwed away most of the day. I talked to New Brunswick today, and then went to a bbq at Candice's. Which was nice, her parents, boyfriend Jay, and her neighbours were there. It was really nice to be outside and enjoying the weather. However, it made me pretty homesick. I miss sitting in the gazebo with tea. So, tonight it's good ole pepsi, and Josh Groban!! :) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 20th, 2003
8:29 pm	Oh MY WORD this is hard to access Ok, so it's been 1 week since I've tried to get into this thing, and finally Angela, saved the day. SO, my first posting, is THANK YOU ANG!!! I LOVE YA (in a heterosexual way) (1 Comment |Comment on this)